I’m a hopeless romantic
I want nights filled with wine and jazz
I want the butterflies to last JUST AS….
Our first conversation
Mouth watering for your every word with no mental starvation
JUST AS… our first date
In which every day I want to recreate
JUST AS.. the memories we have yet to tell
I have yet to find you because I refuse to settle.
I found this article for green juicing. I’ve been juicing every single last morning. I love it. It kick starts my day like nothing else. Currently this is my recipe.
1 cup of almond milk
Hand full of frozen peaches or Mangos
Hand full of Spinach
Hand full of Kale
1 apple sliced
The banana makes it very creamy and smooth. I did not have a banana this morning so I used half of a Avocado and it did the same job. I would not use Avocado everyday because it makes ‘me’ bloat. Below is something I found this morning I’m going to try.
- 5 kale leaves (stalks removed)
- 1/2 cup baby spinach
- 1 cup green seedless grapes (approx. 20 grapes)
- 1 small granny smith apple
- 1 english cucumber
- 1/2 cup water (if using a blender)
If you have a juicer, follow the directions from the manufacturer to juice the ingredients. If you are using a blender, core and cut apples. Place grapes in blender first, followed by the apples, cucumbers, spinach and then kale. Add water to thin out.
Makes two servings.
I feel alot better. Well I did yesterday I just did not feel like writing. I like jotting all this down in hopes of one day looking back on it and seeing how strong I was. Anyways- last weekend was the show so of course I missed my meeting. No biggie cuz I never do. But I missed possibly the best message. I went over it yesterday so I could catch up and not miss anything and man did I need that. When you fall…or stumble..get back up and continue the race in life towards your spiritual prize. Man does things speak to you when you need them or what? The part that stood out to me the most was the part about others injustices being a stumbling block. Yet even though we may see injustice we can take it 3 ways. 1.)Recognize that Jesus see’s everything as the head of the congregation and will deal with it in it’s own due time, 2.) Maybe we are not seeing the big picture that Jesus and the Elders do see 3.) let it stumble us. I decided to use this as a stepping stone instead. I’ve always seen myself as an optimist. I try to find the silver lining in ‘everything’ eventually. So in this situation I can allow it to be a stepping stone..and a lesson to never want to be in the same situation again.. sometimes two times a charm. I feel for those who have no spiritual food to guide them through life…no map…thankful I do. I also want to get better at personal studying of the bible. It’s impossible to run this race of life without that constant studying of the scriptures. So that’s a goal to work towards. cya
So I asked a brother on my committee yesterday when I should write my letter because I don’t want to write another one and get rejected. He said.. end of June. *sigh* Sometimes I really feel like giving up and throwing the towel in but I’ve come too far for that. Just gotta suck it up.
Hey! So these are not all of the pictures. We took these with our cell phones. I cannot wait to get the professional pictures so I can post them to my business blog. I also cannot wait to see the headshots of the girls wearing my jewelry. I’m TOO excited!!!!!!
Man…this sucks. I need to get it off my chest though. I just turned down a very..artistic.. good looking.. man. Only reason why? He does not share my faith and I want someone that shares my faith. It really sucks sometimes but, I am proud of myself that I am able to stay so focused. It is very very hard. I’m not gonna lie and say it is not. It’s an almost everyday struggle to not take my mind there. I don’t know which is worse…settling for someone that you do not want as much as you have wanted someone in the past ‘just’ because they share your faith, or just staying single so that you don’t settle. I rather stay single than to marry or be with someone that I am not happy with. Just my thoughts for today. My model partner this weekend came at me SO hard. He walked up behind me no lie and said “you are so f***king beautiful, I want you so f***king bad” – I just ignored him. He did this while I was styling the models with my jewelry. It was not as hard to turn him down on his 6 invites to dinner over the course of all of this rehearsing because he just came off SO cocky to me. Oh- I almost forgot this tidbit . He had the nerve to ask me out and when I said “NO” firmly he says “No? you’re denying me? That does not happen. Mr.(hislastname) does not get denied” I said “Well what do you think is happening right now?? You’re getting denied!” It made it so awkward because he was my partner. It turned me completely off. I hate a cocky guy. He thought just because he was chocolate with locks (my weakness) he could get somewhere with me. Um negative. It was not enough space in a football field for his big cocky head. Ok I’m done. But I think that’s why I had such a hard time today turning this other guy down because he also was a part of the show. He rapped spoken word and drew art simultaneously. He approached me respectfully and answered respectfully when I told him I was not looking for anyone. Those are the hard ones..the respectful ones. But man I really feel like I need to do something because this happens so much. It gets draining having to turn down..turn down ..turn down. I’m not saying my door is being knocked down every single day but often enough to frustrate me and make me feel like I’m being targeted by a bigger force. It makes my heart heavy. I always say I’m not looking and I’m not. I really am ok single , but sometimes just like any other human I long for that romance and that hug. So..I would say its easier more times than it’s harder. I’m sucking it up though and taking one day at a time.
The show this weekend went AMAZING!!!! My jewelry was on almost every…single…last…model. My name was also on the big screen each scene. It was so fun being a model. I’ll upload some pictures later on.